September 27, 2005
A short burst of rage
It’s very hard to live with male ego. If I’m dedicated to something, the word “stubborn” is automatically stamped on my forehead. And if I’m still hard headed to carry on after numerals ‘No’s I’m not surprised that stronger words like obstinate, mulish and pertinacious will be used.
No, I’m not fueling over some misconception on the word ‘dedication’ but rather placing blame of yesterday’s post onto testosterone (read: source of male ego) and 2.5% alcoholic beverage (yes, I do drink when I’m low). Knowing that no matter how much “I’m sorry” that I’m going to fill the rest of this post, it’ll never be the same again. The damage is already done. To accept this apology or not is not up to me to decide it’s worthy-ness. To add or not to add another name in your personal fiendster list, will affect me, big time. But hey, I got to live with it. Life got to go on.
Added note: anyone know how to turn off e-mail sending feature where an e-mail notification will be sent to those in my friendster list informing everybody that I’ve updated my blog, please e-mail me. Thank you.
updated 20 March 08
coming to think of it, there IS an option to keep things in draft form, for my eyes only. can’t believe i was that dumb
