September 25, 2005
Dried Eyes
They say that man shouldn’t cry. I say it’s bullshit. After all, man is also human who has feelings and emotions. So what’s wrong in crying when you are sad?
No, I’m not crying, but i felt like to. For some funny reason I can’t. I thought that I didn’t really missed my grandma that much, so i didn’t cry at her funeral. Today I recieved some disturbing news (my girlfriend of six months broke up with me) and it really pricks my heart. Did i cry? no. Not at the moment, not when I reached home, not when I’m alone and no one’s around. Not a single drop of tear.
Could it be that i’m heartless and no longger have any emotions, even for myself? Some how I’m recalling an episode of The Simpsons where Bart sold is soul and lost his very essence of living. Maybe I’ve lost my soul and every essence that I had left in me. Maybe I’ve lost my soul a long time ago and didn’t realize it. (coming to think of it, it’s been a darn long time since tears run down my cheeks)
